This may be the last thing that i write for long

Can you hear me smiling when i sing this song, for you and only you

As I leave will you be someone to say good-bye

As I leave will you be someone to wipe your eye

My foot is out the door, and you can't stop me now

You wanted the best, it wasn't me, will you give it back

Now i'll take the lead, when there's no more room to make it grow

I'll see you again, you'll pretend you're naive, is this what you want

Is this what you need, how you end up let me know.

The hearts start breaking as the year is gone

The dream's beginning and the time rolls on

It seems so surreal, now I sing it.

Somehow I knew that it would slowly fade.

Now i'm gone, just try and stop me now.

And will you need me now, you'll find a way somehow

You want it too, I want it too.

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Listening to this song is like deja-vu everytime. I remembered it being one of the few songs I always listen to, knowing that my friendship with him will never last. It started off fast, and somehow I knew it will end as fast.

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But he said I was wrong. For once in my life, I believed someone one else other than myself.

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And look where it has gotten me.

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It hurts thinking back about the times we had. I did so many things I wouldn't even think of doing. Some of them sweet, some of them, I'm not so proud of. But the only reason it's memorable is because I did it with him.

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Somewhere along the line, I let him affect me. I made myself vulnerable. Another thing I never thought I'd do, was being vulnerable. I finally let my guards down, and how I wish to god I've never done that.

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How could he do this to me is what I want to know. I have never done anything bad to him. I cared for him. Looked after him. Reminded him of all the uni shit he seems to be unaware of. Backed him up in whatever he wants or plans to do. NEVER judged him.

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And yet, this is how he says thank you.

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A slap in the face would've been more appropriate.

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I was planning to write about all the good times we had, things I should remember him by but I'm even not up to that.

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I won't lie, I still care for him. Maybe now, not as much because before the friendship actually ends, I hope I've given up all my care for him.

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I'm loyal. Something I was born with I guess. I just need to find the right person to share my loyalty with. I've had this one bad experience, I just hope I don't have to go through it again.

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I am through with you.

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